Next stop: Indonesia

Next stop: Indonesia

Yokyakarta
1. Candi Borobudur (mid yokyakarta)
2. Candi Prambanan 普蘭班南陵廟群 May to Oct (dry season) Ramayana opera!
3. Kraton Yokyakarta 日惹蘇丹王宮。
4. Gunung Merapi. small sweden. 默拉比火山 （東爪哇的瑞士）
5. Jalan Malioboro
6. Solo/ Surakarta

1. Kawah Tangkuban Prahu (bandung)

什麽？

儅自己不再想要記錄的時候是什麽的開始？

沒了自己的空間。好像也懶得去想東想西了。

now

Actually i don't know the feeling of "i am alone" hunt me down like this. Why would i feel so bad about this? What would you expect from a relationship? Maybe i was expecting the wrong thing and too much, that's why every rejection turns to a disappointment. I don't know was it me that became too emotionally rely on my new boy.

Even though you are in relationships, sometimes you still have to go through the time while you are alone, get through the loneliness. Get through the time while you don't feel like doing anything and no one is there to spend time with you.

After i was so drunk, until i slept and cry on the table for 2 hours, my Korean colleague, the married guy, who has the papa feel kept on telling me to be strong. He said Korean guys only cry on 3 things: when their country die; when their parents die, when their wife dies. Then a successful person like him saying that there was some downtime with him too, that the life was not the life he wanted and he went to a church, and every words "they" said touched his heart and make him wants to cry. Speaking till here, his tears were starting to drop. That should be a really hard time, or a touching time for him. You get to see something different when people are drunk. Then he kept telling me to be strong and stop crying. Yes, i really want to stop it.

i realized maybe someone inside me just went away, that's why i am so weak. That man is god.

低潮

今年應該是25年來人生最低潮吧。覺得自己不被重視，覺得各方要求都太高。終于我爆炸了。結果要吃半年的葯。把自己搞成這樣。。。

也許是自己太執著了嗎？但是不執著怎麽得到想要的東西呢？又或許想要的東西真的太多太遙遠了。最近在藥物的幫助下終于不再那麽敏感，不再那麽容易想哭了。覺得輕鬆很多~還好是吃葯就會好的病。爲什麽凡事都要追求完美呢？爲什麽那麽害怕寂寞呢？

也許生活失去了平衡。bass 也幾乎兩個月沒碰了。兩個月沒運動。

現在呢？要快樂地活著，甘於平凡，時間快點過。還有繼續進步。

感謝大家的支持。我會撐過去的。

最近要像個大人。

最近生活充滿變數。當覺得一切好像可以就這樣順順利利地繼續下去的時候，生活間接地被身邊的人改變了。所以沒有東西是不會變的。家裡發生了一些不愉快事件。覺得能夠自由地無牽無掛地使用自己的時間真的是很難得的事。

最近覺得喜歡做的事都提不起勁去做了。不想出去拍照，不想去書店，不想看書，不想去博物館，不想逛街，不想買衣服，不想學programming 學投資，不想搞藝術。。。只想快快把工作做完。魚仔叫我“放鬆滴，放鬆滴，不要把自己逼得太緊！”希望那個什麼都想做的我趕快回來。

我需要更積極地生活態度！還有我應該改變把什麼事情都看得很重的態度！

最近會認真思考自己想要的到底是怎麼樣的生活，成為什麼樣的人。

覺得剛畢業的我確實還蠻可愛的。雄心壯志。哈！現在好像變成了當時自己眼中的俗人 :/

你還相信改變嗎？2011年海嘯席捲了日本。當時的我坐在電腦前面。看著現場直播的畫面時還沒有覺得怎麼樣。事後確覺得好可怕。1995年神戶大地震過後村上春樹出了一本書《神的孩子都在跳舞》。寫的都是大地震後。

奇怪

當又再次決得生活開始一成不變，覺得無聊時，我又想出走。

也許我的信念太薄弱。還沒有足夠的動力去推自己努力更努力。

然而很奇怪的，身邊最疼愛我的人總是不約而同地告訴我不要把自己逼得太累，什麽都不做也不需要覺得歉疚（我對於白白失去的寶貴時間深感歉疚）。好好休息吧。這究竟是什麽樣的奇怪暗示？

很不捨得花錢在享受上。啊。矛盾。但是畢竟也暫時還沒有多少閑錢可以隨意花。小小的快樂就是偶爾小小地奢侈以下~

*不要問我為什麼總是呆呆地望著你。因為我很想記著你簡單的微笑。*

好久好久沒有 “input” 和 "output" 了。

有時拿起筆卻寫不出個像樣完整的句子。每天就是在為工作生活做準備～

這就是平庸的人的日子吧～有人說“平凡也是一種幸福”，挺不錯滴。不再做遙遠的幻想，與喜歡的人做喜歡的事。也許這就是衝刺的目的吧？當想要的太多，就會不自覺地像狗追著自己的尾巴那樣繞圈子，為什麼非得相信“辛苦過後會更好”的思考模式？為什麼不相信“自己想要的幸福就在眼前”？是的，最近有些思想上的衝擊。 為何總是捨近求遠？

終於看了 “告白”。

（從前從前光看標題還以為是愛情片就錯過了。。。）

感想就是“好看”啊～ 最後一幕還真不知道那笑容是什麼意思。。。

好複雜的表情！難得的片子。

看完後的感覺讓我想起 "Blackswan"，“Saw 1”... 精神大緊繃之後果真有種“重生”的感覺。。。從前也有人教過，想要要放鬆平時緊繃的肌肉，就是把它繃得再比平時緊，緊繃到極限之後將之放鬆。不妨對肩膀試試看。

所以珍惜每天都在做的小事吧～ 尤其最近日本災難的新聞充斥眼際。

漂泊之後，總是會開始懷念那不怎麼樣的家，還有每天做的不怎麼樣的小事。

開完夜車之後格外珍惜每一件可以在早上神清氣爽時做的事：曬曬早上的太陽，慢跑的微風，初升的太陽，慢調的早餐。

希望大家快點好起來，盡快回到生活軌道。

好怪。每次想寫東西的時候，完稿總會與之前的構想有所出入。

*不要問我為什麼總是呆呆地望著你。我只是在努力地珍惜你簡單的微笑。*

這句太肉麻了，實在不敢放在FB。。。

愛的感覺是溫暖的

http://www.ebusa.org.tw/?p=1118

愛的感覺是溫暖的

要如何去判斷什麼是愛？愛是一個會意字，一個「心」加上一個「受」。何謂心受？就是用心去感受對方的需要，才叫愛。當一個人處處都為你著想，處處要成就你，你的感受是什麼？非常歡喜，非常溫暖，所以「愛的感覺是溫暖的」。

當我們懂得愛護別人，一定是給人很溫暖的感覺，很歡喜的

感覺。假如你今天交往的朋友，交往的對象，讓你每天壓力都很大、很痛苦，這時你要馬上做出抉擇，因為事情愈拖會愈複雜。此時你就能了解到，對方可能是利用愛情來威脅你，他說我很愛你，所以你應該為我做什麼；我很愛你，因此你今天只能陪我，不能陪你的父母，用愛的方式去要脅對方，要求別人。現代男女在交往上是否輕鬆？都有很多痛苦。因為人不懂得如何去愛別人，如何去替別人著想。

愛的感覺是溫暖的，這一點要注意，決不是像情歌一樣，愛得死去活來。那不是愛情，那叫做「欲」，時時想要控制對方，佔有對方，才會讓彼此的壓力很大。欲就好比是穿著很漂亮的衣服，打扮成愛，若你沒有智慧，不能仔細看清楚，就被它矇騙了。

愛的言語是正直的

愛的言語是正直的，是真正為你著想，而不是花言巧語。我在講課時，把「相識、相知、相惜、相愛、結婚」分析給學生聽之後。我會問女同學：「假如有一個男生第一次見到妳，就說我好愛妳，妳是否相信？」他從相識立刻跳到相愛，這不是自然現象，一定是假話。還有人才交往三天就說：「我一定要娶妳。」馬上從相識變成結婚。我就跟他們說這絕對是騙人，都是花言巧語，言語都不正直。言語不正直代表他一定是有所企圖，等到他的目的達到了，就把妳拋棄了。因此，要學會判斷對方的言語，花言巧語不能聽。但是說歸說，女人最怕的就是花言巧語，所以沒有相當的功夫辦不到。

有一個朋友很有意思，她第一次見到她先生的時候，她先生就告訴她：「妳的牙齒不好。」這樣的人好不好？是否很正直？非常正直。她先生接著又跟她說：「牙齒不好，咀嚼不好，消化就不好，會增加胃的負擔，長期下來胃就不好。」他講的是實話。因

為她先生第一次就直接告訴她這些，表示這個人非常正直，絕對不會說假話。後來她就嫁給他，現在他們夫妻相處得很好。所以，我們要會判斷對方的言語是否正直，而不是花言巧語。甚至很多的朋友跟你阿諛奉承，那些話都不是真的，都要懂得去分辨。

愛的心地是無私的

一個人有愛心的時候，會不會只對一個人有愛心？絕對不會，他應該是對很多人都很關懷。很多女性都說：「我的先生最重視的第一位是父母，第二是兄弟，第三是孩子，我排最後。」其實她在講此話的時候，內心還是有點安慰，因為先生懂得孝順父母、友愛兄弟，他對人的愛心、關懷、情義才是真的。妳陪伴他幾十年下來，他對妳的這種情義就會愈來愈深，所以心地一定要無私才是真的。

愛的行為是成全的

當妳有很多好的想法要去完成時，妳的先生絕對會隨喜功德，他絕對會很認同妳去做。尤其是當妳要孝順父母，當妳很有愛心，當妳在落實聖賢教誨的時候，他一定會從心底讚歎妳，甚至於助妳一把，這才是真正的愛。現代很多年輕人在交往時，都不敢把對象帶回家裡去。甚至當女方說明我想回去陪我的爸爸、媽媽，他卻說我難得放假，今天就陪我，別回去了。這樣的男人要不要交往？危險，不能交。假如妳要回去孝順父母，他很歡喜讓妳趕快回去，甚至於說我陪妳回去，這樣的男人才可交往。

為什麼一些年輕人不敢跟著女友回家，原因何在？對方的父母有人生閱歷，假如一看到他，他會像是被照妖鏡一照，就原形畢露。所以，現代的年輕人都很畏懼見長輩，因為自己的德行不夠。因此，當對方有這些好的想法時，我們要隨喜，這樣彼此的感情、認同會愈來愈加深。

我有一位朋友，他的妹妹在夏威夷工作，因為這段期間身體不舒服，整個家庭經濟就垮下來。我這位朋友立刻把他兩年多的積蓄全部匯給他妹妹，我們相信他這樣做下去，誰最歡喜？父母最歡喜，因為兄弟姐妹友愛是父母最開心的一件事。他還委託他的太太說：「妳幫我把錢匯過去。」他的太太很歡喜把這筆錢匯過去，成就先生這一分友愛妹妹的心，她還當面跟她先生說，我很佩服你這麼做。她處處能看到自己先生的優點，所以夫妻相處很樂和。因此，當自己的先生或太太做的是非常好的事，我們一定要全心全意支持對方，因為愛的行為是成全的。夫妻關係都要遵循道義，家庭的後福一定無窮

Ur brain will fill up what you read

after reading Haruki, i like Beatles even more...

if i were haruki

everything is like a dream.

you were there

but you left

standing here,

im facing the kafka hills

mirroring its shadows on the waters

blue and black is what i see

standing on the hills

waiting for the sun rise

and finally,

i see it turns colorful

everything that passed has become dust

future is foggy

but right now

i know i am standing on the hills of kafka

shouting my name and asking who i am

疯狂世界

我好想好想飞，逃离这个疯狂的世界

Recently Hor...

yeay~ finally im able to play some proper song~ "That Thing You Do"
what i've learnt from playing this super fast song (maybe just for me)?
DON'T LOOK BACK AND DON'T THINK TOO MUCH, FOCUS!
one second of distraction could cause disaster~~
hopefully would be able to upload a video soon~

It was fun and satisfying~ after 6 lessons~ wow wow~ Thanks Martin!
Recently, those "messy thoughts" are gone~ some good and some bad about it.hmm...

Hope to play again in the next morning!
The To Do List is being filled up slowly :)

TO DO:
-progress in work (finish the Comp Book)
-speake proper English (somehow, am slowing down. more practise needed)
-Do Vertical Marathon Challenge at list once per 2 days x100 storeys
-and make some pocket $$ (hehe)

how do you live?

my schedule:

Mon: Bass lessons
Tue: Badminton game
Wed: Staircase training
Thu: yeay~
Fri: Yeay~
Sat: Yeay~ reading day, or family day
Sun: Yeay~ or family day

and have to slot these in: English (hopefully will slot in on Thu or Fri), Investment, Self improvement in CG techniques, bass practise, fine art training, andHANG OUT WITH FRIENDS

Wow~ can't wait to go back to work~!

Ammm.........PARTY HangOver

生活手札

有时，生活是很艺术的，另一面却不得不面对铜臭那一面的现实。
我想，就是因为那一句“天上的星星笑地上的人，总是不能够不能觉得足够”在搞鬼吧！

百感交集。想要抒发的时候却语塞~~~
恩~只想快点找到方法来实现梦想。

有没有必要呢？
一个时代的 Culture & Value 的确是看不到，感觉虚无抽象，然而每分每秒实实在在不知不觉地影响着人们的决定。
在看了“How Art Made the World” DVD 和书本 The Tipping Point，还有一系列村上春树的小说后，深深感受到了何谓一个时代的 "Culture & Value"。还有小说潜藏的力量-- 潜移默化。把什么放在脑中，就得到怎样的世界。

这个世纪是追求财富的世界。媒体的潜移默化不可小觑。因为出身科班，知道广告是怎么回事（据脑袋认知，广告就是打广告的人要控制观众的 "Value"。我把它解读成“思想控制”）。于是不知不觉地对“主流”感到无所谓，还怀有小小的轻视（比如说女人MUST化妆,买贵贵的保养品；尤其是高跟鞋，简直是自虐！。。。）。还是觉得多认识一些朋友的生活样貌比较有趣。轻视归轻视，还是不得不先跟着时代走。

啊。。。脑袋漫游在另一个世界。当下的我还是要踏踏实实地走出去！做！

A Lost Diamond in the Century

Lots of beautiful stuff happening in the 60's. What we, the 80's babies are still lucky to live in the ending of hand drawn animation and wild imagination without being "blue". Dream is still beautiful in the 60's, this is the color of hope.

"Yellow Submarine" and the opening credits
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e2PmskDk494&feature=related

"Nowhere Man"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZnrdxuR-6cM&feature=related

BBC Documentary- How Art Made the World

I am a person who always wanted to know the origin of everything. For example, when working on maths, if i don't know why this affect that, than i would be very frustrated~~! And later on, I choosed to work with Art. And starting to wonder about the Origin of Arts.

Borrowed the DVD from company's library. But Disc 1 is lost and replaced by some other cd (oh~ people!) The show was presented by Dr Nigel Spivey from Cambridge University, Producer: Mark Hedgecoe. Dr Nigel has the charm in Tv, and they really plan the flow and visual really well.

The most important concept i've learnt: How the story telling works for the Kings and rulers in the past, and how death and fear works for the ruller/religion to dominate, why do people tend to make the icon of death surrounding us, how death motivates soldiers to sacrifice themselves for the greater good and so on. Many psychological test, research were done. Ideas that goes in depth but represented in simple and understandable way that everyone could understand. For those who are always wondering the origins of everything and why, this is a show which helps to open up the scale of your vision, truly inspiring!

拥抱？1Q84

最近啊最近。。。好忙好忙。。。
忙碌才能够催促自己完成更多事吧？
总是在忙碌的时候读比平时更多的书。

这次要介绍1Q84
不过实在是累得有点过头了。
对不起，转载一个我蛮认同的感想：

“　除卻男女主角的互相思念，故事的主軸就是1Q84的世界。看完之後，我不能說我明白了，但我也不能說我什麼也看不懂。事實上得到了很多東西，對很多的部份有著不同的感想，不過我卻想著我是不是會錯意了。像是有關於教團和教祖的部份，在故事前半段透過戎野老師的描述和老婦人的描述，無論從哪個觀點看都是邪教教團啊，但實際見到教祖之後，卻又覺得不是那麼一回事。我想著，這也許就是當我們是局外人時，只會想著信徒為什麼那麼笨；但實際接觸到之後，卻又覺得其實也是有點道理？即使看完之後我也不知道自己是不是會錯意了，但也許好的小說就是這樣，敘述出來的故事是容許讀者自由思考的。”转自：http://shivalrain.blog126.fc2.com/blog-entry-65.html

震撼的是“真相不只一个”。现在看报纸会开始有“双线进行”的想法；思考为何我们总是为生命留下遗憾，思考如何不行尸走肉地活着。

从来就不读小说的我，开始想要读更多（为什么突然开始读？因为发现我喜欢的作家，于是开始寻找到底是谁启发了我所欣赏的人）。很享受思想经历碰撞的时刻。话说这是作者村上春树写得最困难的书。村上春树大概30岁才开始写小说。从小就热爱文学，也是个非常有想法主见的人。就是一直热爱与坚持着自己喜欢与相信的事（剩下的就自己google 下啦~对不起太累了。。。）也许同是水瓶座的关系，他的生平也为我带来很大的鼓舞！

当你的朋友被无力感包围的时候，你是否愿意给他一个深深的拥抱?

但是无奈，每天每天还是那么忙，为一些莫名其妙的事让梦想腐烂。。。让自己坚持下去的还是那份梦想，还有相信明天会更好的信念！

很期待book3 &4
好想读更多故事。。。

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consists lots of good fashion links.

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Berlin street style, nice photo

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yea, Stockholm street style, good quality photos.

http://streetpeeper.com/

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what is the most happier moment after producing an animation?

AUDIENCE MATTERS!

it is heart warming that ppl do like our animation and make it to their favourite!

i just tried to follow where has our Mannequin travelled so far~

again, thanks to our Teachers and my wonderful Team Mates to make our Mannequin born.

for all my team mates, really wishing u guys can achieve another level in this industry~

yes! lets work hard ^^

see you somewhere in the future :)

1. From where Le Mannequin was born - The One Academy

http://www.toa.edu.my/newsletter/

Le Mannequin Holds Recognition in BMW Shorties In another short film competition of the BMW Shorties short film competition, nine finalists were chosen by top panel judges of industry professionals. One of the top honours that made it is from The One Academy students who submitted the team final year project Le Mannequin, a short film which incidentally made it as the only animated finalist in the competition. For team members Wong Wei Jian, Cheong Tsae Yen, Audrey Au E-Theng, Chin Shen Yin and Cheong Kai Yen, Le Mannequin marks a winning step of their final year effort in the film-making industry. It took them one year to complete the short film, ensuring that their works are produced with quality in terms of story and its aesthetic values. Having graduated from The One Academy since then, Wong said that studying at The One Academy has not only taught the students how to survive in the industry, but also “opened up our sights to learn to appreciate the beauty of life,” and we reckon love was one of them. Well done all! 2. BMW Shorties http://www.bmwshorties.com.my/2009/ 3. Edmund Yeo's Blog - a Malaysian filmmaker's blog http://swiftywriting.blogspot.com/2009_07_01_archive.html "Le Mannequin is very whimsical and romantic, reminds me of a Pixar animation (an obvious influence, I'm sure), and a dash of French romantic comedies like Amelie... and also the pain I myself have with women. I heard it took nearly ten months to work on this, I can say that the hard work can definitely be seen here!" 4. The Animation Blog.com - http://www.theanimationblog.com/tag/spotlight/page/2/ "Another great student film for you all to check out." 5. Milk and Cookies http://www.milkandcookies.com/link/152504/detail/ 6. torrents.ru http://torrents.ru/forum/viewtopic.php?t=2187266

7. NW CoddechHD

http://www.nwcod.com/films/multz/84903-maneken-le-mannequin-2009-dvdrip.html

(some ppl export it to a DVD Rip version~ this is anther Russian website~)

8. Vids.eu.org

http://vids.eu.org/view-id-3687654.html

9. www.animationmagazine.eu (beta)

http://www.animationmagazine.eu/2009/09/le-mannequin.html

10. Artist Pub 3D

http://www.artistpub.hu/index.php?p=forum_topic&id=489&o=msg_index&d=asc&page=13

10. Le Guide Des Film Internet

http://www.loftv.com/index.php3/mobiles/contenu/gauche/index.php3?affich=detail&idfilm=17857

11. DMA LOG - 動畫、遊戲、數位藝術的資訊站 ─ 由世新大學數位多媒體設計系師生共同維護

http://dmalog.blogspot.com/2009_09_01_archive.html

"這陣子迪士尼頻道在重播《小木偶》，另外電視廣告有十二星座求婚，把這兩個元素加起來就是"Le Mannequin" (模特兒)。這是五位就讀於馬來西亞The One Academy 傳播設計學院的學生的畢業作品，對於不喜歡看電影結束時跑工作人員名單的台灣人來說，這部動畫可一定要看完名單，要不然就看不到大結局了。這五位學生分別是Wong Wei Jian,Cheong Tsae Yen,Cheong Kai Yen, Audrey Au E-theng, Chin Shenyin。"

12. WAT

http://www.wat.tv/video/mannequin-1sau7_1o63n_.html

solitudeman: "Trés belle histoire... Une chose est certaine... On n'est pas embêté par les dialogues.... Hi hi hi.... Je ne m'attendais pas à ce final une fois de plus.... Ahhhh l'Amour qui rend tout possible..... Merci Fidjie... ;-)"

lenore62 a dit :il y a 1 mois hé!hé!hé! ç'est une bien jolie histoire romantique "à la française" ,(comme se l'imagine la plus part du temps les etrangers vis a vis de Paris et de son ambiance....lol!). je te le pique kopine!! merciiiiiiii!!! kissoux caféinés "made in chtit"!!lol!! Léno

(can someone help to translate? i very care about what the french ppl thinking as we made a french background animation yet none of us had been there before :P)

13. Shot of the Week

http://www.shortoftheweek.com/2009/09/05/le-mannequin/

"From the moment Geppetto first carved Pinocchio, the idea of a puppet that comes to life has been staple food for storytellers and animators alike. Created by Parktology (five students from Malaysia’s The One Academy of Communication Design), Le Mannequin is the story of a pair of puppets positioned and posed to beautify the front window of a French boutique. Wong Wei Jian, Cheong Tsae Yen, Cheong Kai Yen, Audrey Au E-theng and Chin Shenyin create a charming piece in their depiction of a marriage proposal between two stringless puppets.

There is always an air of sadness about puppets masquerading as humans. The team addresses this phenomena to a point when the young man’s hand falls off at an inopportune moment (there’s never a good moment!). The young would-be lovers gaze out their shop window set to see a real life couple embrace in the square after the man has proposed to the girl. This ignites an intention in the puppet man’s head. The film’s opportunity to communicate a sense of pathos in how dolls view bona fide humans is missed as this film avoids such grandiose claims. Instead, the film’s charm comes through its archetypical character traits: gentle foolery, the over-earnest suitor, and the occasionally coquettish girlfriend.

I have covered many student films on my Animation Blog, but this is my first from Malaysia. The 3D work is very competently handled—the characters brightly lit with clever points of view. What is interesting is the choice of France as a location. We are well used to French movies of charm from such animation establishments as Gobelins L’Ecole de L’Image or Valenciennes’sSupinfocom. Le Mannequin has something of that look, though it owes just as much to the inimitable Pixar style. It’s a genuinely stylish piece with a light touch however, and for those who like happy endings, don’t miss the action as the credits roll."